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Feeling Better...If Only I Could Say The Same For Ka [Jun. 13th, 2005|02:37 pm]
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Ty--

I'm feeling a lot better today. I think I'm finally over the "hump" so to speak. I'm going to call work and tell them I can start again next week. One more week and I should be better I think. I've got a doctor's appointment tomorrow just to be on the safe side and check things out and such. But I bet it'll go fine.

Tomorrow, after the doctor appointment, me and Ka are taking Chad and Ashley and Daneille to the zoo. Ron would go, but he needs to be at Artie's. With me being sick he hasn't been there in a while and he needs to poke his head in to make sure things are going well. And Daniel would come but...well...he and Ka had a argument. I guess that's what you'd call it.

It's the same old issue. Daniel wants kids and Ka doesn't. And they both have good points. But I just think it's such a stupid thing to break up over. I guess I don't understand Daniel's need for children. His need for kids is aparently stronger than his love for Ka, which I don't get. How can a "want" be stronger than something that you already have? I'll tell you one thing though, if Daniel does wind up leaving Ka won't take him back. We talked about it some today at breakfast. Ka said he's tired of this rollercoaster. And I don't blame him. Daniel's not a bad guy...it's just that he and Ka are at different points in their lives I guess. Ka's done the whold kid thing and Daniel hasn't. They just want different things.

This got me thinking though about me and Ron. He and I had never talked about kids, so last night I meantioned it to him. It was pretty much a non-issue. If kids were to happen to me I'd be happy, but I'm not desperite for them they way Daniel is. And Ron feels that he's too old for kids. So, it pretty much ended there.

But Ka's been moping around the house today. He wants to fix the problem, but the only solution seems to be either a)Daniel moves out or b)Ka gives in. Neither one is a good solution. They seem to be stuck between a rock and a hard place. I'm just glad I'm not in their situation.

Ron and I have never been happier. Our anniversary is coming up and I'm trying to come up with something to do for him to show him what he means to me. Each year it gets harder to come up with an idea. And its not like I can just take him out to dinner. He owns a freaking resturant after all...anywhere I take him would be "compation" and we'd be helping the "enemy"! So, I'll have to come up with something. I've got a few weeks yet, so I've got time.

--Ty
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Moving Out [Jun. 13th, 2005|01:22 pm]
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Daniel--

Well, Ka and I had a "discusion" last night. It wasn't a fight really. We didn't raise our voices or yell at each other or anything. But we came to a dicision. I'll be moving out by the end of the week.

You know, I am sad about this. Sad about how stubborn Ka is being over the whole baby issue. I told him it's something that won't just leave just because he tells me he doesn't want kids. I'm sorry, but it's something that I need to feel complet...and he's not willing to give it to me, so I'm going to have to find it somewhere else. With someone else.

I had a feeling it was going to come to this. I really did. I mean when I came back Ka was so happy that I was back that we just swept the issue under the rug again. But then Chad and his family came to visit and it brought everything up again. I was playing with Danielle, and I just started to cry. I know that's sad and stupid, but I did. I just want a baby so bad. Someone to pass things on to. But am I willing to give up everything I have to go chase something that I need? I guess I am.


We cried last night. Both of us. Neither of us want me to go, but we know it's what has to happen. Last time I left in a fit of rage and we didn't talk 'cause we were both mad. This time I want things to end on a different note. I still want to be a part of Ka's life...I just don't know how that will work...or if it's even possible. I will miss him. I love him. I truely do. I just need something more. I wish it hadn't taken us so long to figure this out.

--Daniel
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Gay Father [Jun. 12th, 2005|11:37 pm]
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Ka--

Sorry I haven't updated it a while. What with Chad and Ashley and Danielle here. Yeah, that's right. They're here. They got here a few days ago actually. We all went out to dinner tonight. Ty even went with us even though he's not completlly better yet. He's been staying away from the baby though 'cause he doesn't want to get her sick. Which is nice of him :O) Daniel on the other hand is having a blast with his granddaughter. Which, on the one hand is great, but on the other makes me worried that it's going to bring up the whole baby issue again. I'm still paranoid that he's going to leave me again. Maybe it's his midlife crises...his wanting a kid. I don't know...I mean it is a little early for him to be having a midlife crises isn't? Well, whatever it is I hope he's content with NOT having kids. Because I definitly don't want any. For one, it would be so hard to raise a kid and continue to go back to school. For two, Daniel still doesn't have a steady job. He will in the fall, but I don't want to raise a kid while living in my bestfriends' basement! And the third and probubly most important reason is that I don't want to be a gay father.

Sure, I was a "gay father" before when I had Chad. But I was still in the closet and I didn't have a boyfriend...I was married to his mother after all. And then after we divorced...well, let's just say I didn't really see him grow up. I miss that. I wish I had. It just didn't seem right. At least to his mother. She wanted me out of his life after she found out I was gay. I guess you can't really blame her. It was the 80s after all and she was mad at being lied too. I could go on about this all day. I don't even know what kind of father I'd be. Daniel says I'd be a great dad, but I wasn't that great of a dad to Chad. Maybe I just wasn't given the chance since his mom ran off with him and didn't tell me where they were. Maybe if they had staied I would have been a great dad. And then maybe Chad wouldn't have run off and gotten married and had his own kid so early. He's only 20 for godsake. At least he waited a little longer than I did!

Why did I get married so soon? I guess I was just hiding from who I really was. I mean, at the time, when it all happened it wasn't like being gay was "cool" or "popular"...not that it is now, but in some circles it can be. I was 18, fresh out of high school. No one telling me no. I was stupid...she was...well, I don't want to say stupid, but she was in love...which is very close to being stupid I guess. ::sigh::

I should go. Daniel's calling for me to come to bed. And I am tired.

--Ka
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Do They Know? [Jun. 6th, 2005|10:26 pm]
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Daniel--

Okay, let's try this again. I just typed up an update, and then when I went to post it it said, "web site not responding". Ugg. This is the story of my day. "What happened today?" I hear you asking. Well, there was a fight at the end of my class today. Between the two "teams" (I use that term loosly) in our basket ball game. I don't even know what it was about. I think it was over a foul or some shit.

I don't know how they expect me to teach this stuff to these kids. I mean the kids seem to know more about the stuff than I do. For example I was trying to teach them about layups. And I couldn't make one shot. I laughed it off along with them and joked on myself some just to show them that I'm not a stick in the mud...but it was still kind of embaressing. And I noticed a few of the girls giggling and pointing at me. I think they're catching on...to my sexuality that is.

Well, another day of hell tomorrow.

--Daniel
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Mono? [Jun. 6th, 2005|09:38 pm]
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Ty--

Well, I heard from Dr. Hammond today. Turns out I have Mono. Don't ask me how the hell I got it. I only kiss one man ;O) and he sure as hell doesn't kiss anyone but me. The doc said that since I have a "compromised immune system" it's a lot easier to catch Mono among other things, so I could have just gotten it from someone coughing on me or something. Whoo Hoo. So, yeah, it's going to take a couple weeks to get it out of my system. So I can't go to work which is okay in one aspect, but of course it also means no pay cheak. And I'll probubly still be sick when Ka's family comes for their visit. I hope not...but if I don't rest it could get worse...and besides I don't think I'm going to want to do much. I just feel so drained.

So, I'm going to go watch yet another movie. I think I've rented everything at Block Buster!

--Ty
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Busy, Busy, Busy [Jun. 4th, 2005|11:55 pm]
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Ron--

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've been running around like a chicken with its head cut off lately. Between running Artie's, taking care of Ty and getting ready for Ka's son to come visit I've been going crazy.

But today was nice. Ty was feeling a lot better and the four of us all were home at the same time right around lunch time, so we all decided to go out and get Chinese food. It was so good. And it was nice to hang out, the four of us. We haven't really done that that much since Ka and Daniel moved in. We kind of take it forgranted that we all live under the same roof.

Come to think of it...Daniel and I haven't hung out one on one since he got back together with Ka. Actually, we didn't hang out one on one while they were split up either. Honestly I guess I'm still kind of ticked at him for treating Ka the way he did. I mean, one of the things I always loved about their relationship was the way the communicated with each other, and then what killed it for six months? A lack of communication. It just didn't make any sense. I would have thought that they had discussed children before they got real seriouse...although I guess it makes sense that they didn't. I mean, in a gay relationship...espesolly one between two men...it's rare that the subject comes up. I don't know. It just was like this big boiling pot that no one was paying any attention to, and then it finally boiled over and everyone was like, "how did that happen?" It was really quite silly.

Well, I'm rambling on about nothing of any importance to me now...so I think I'm going to go curl up in bed with my baby.

--Ron
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School Sucks [Jun. 3rd, 2005|03:18 pm]
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Daniel--

Back from another day of hell. Yes, I do truely believe that teaching middle school P.E. is hell. The reason? The students don't care. I mean, at least when I'm teaching English there are a few kids who are actually interested. But P.E.? No one gives a rat's ass about it.

I had to write one kid up today. It was just stupid. He wouldn't do the fitness test. He just flat out refused. So I told him that he had a choice, a) do the fitness test or b) I write him up. He decided on "b". But the really frustrating part was that it made me look like the bad guy to the other kids. It was like this kid was testing me to see how far I'd go and I went all the way and now the other kids are like, "ooh...Mr. Pemdose is a bastard! ooohh, better not piss him off" with a slightly sarcastic tone.

In other news, Ka's on this big kick about putting up a picture of Adam somewhere in the basement. I'm still not too for it. He needs to move on and forget about Adam and putting pictures up around the house won't do that. I'll just try and ignore his hints until it subsides, which I'm sure it will.

Well, I think I'm going to take a nice hot bath.

--Daniel
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Could Daniel Be Jelouse? [Jun. 2nd, 2005|10:55 pm]
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Ka--

So last night when I went back to bed after posting my dream, I acadentally woke Daniel up and he made me tell him about the dream. He was a bit annoyed at it. Even though I hadn't dremt of Adam in a long time he still said, "You're always dreaming about that guy." It's hard for Daniel to understand why I still think about him (even if it's not that often). For one, he was my first real love...and two we never really stoped loving each other. He was murdered and that basicly was it. I mean, you can't exactally continue a relationship after the guy's dead. But Daniel's never really lost anyone he's loved. Except for Tony (Ron's former partner). But he didn't love Tony the way I loved Adam. Does that make sense? I think it does. Ron understands very well and we've talked about it before. And for some reason Ty is very understanding to Ron. Like, Ron has pictures of him and Tony around the house and it doesn't seem to bother Ty at all. If I wanted to put up a picture of me and Adam, or just Adam I'd get this evil look from Daniel. I asked him about this once and he said it's different my realtionship with Adam and Ron's with Tony. Ron and Tony were a) together a lot longer and b) they lived together and had a ceremony and all that stuff. I think Daniel's just jelouse that I still think about Adam. Which I don't think he should be at all. I love Daniel. Not Adam. Although I guess it's hard for Daniel sice Adam and I never officaly "broke up" or anything. It wasn't like a choice either of us made to stop seeing each other. I guess that's the part that's hard for him.

--Ka
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Back From the Doctor [Jun. 2nd, 2005|10:41 am]
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Ty--

So I'm back from my doctor's appointment. It went well, I guess. He ran a bunch of tests to see why I'm so freakin' tired. I have to go back in on Monday to get the results back. So that's the sucky part. He said he'd put a "rush" on them so maybe they'd be ready tomorrow...but on Thursdays lots of people put "rushes" on their tests even if they don't need them...or so Dr. Hammond says. So his advice was just to get a lot of rest and who knows? it (whatever "it" is) could be gone by the time we get the tests back. He didn't check my t-cells though...Ron was kinda mad about that...but I don't have a fever, so it made sense to me.

Okay...off to rest some more. Bah :OP

--Ty
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Nightmare [Jun. 2nd, 2005|12:51 am]
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Ka--

So, I'm up. It's one in the morning...and I just woke up from a dream and had to post it on here before I forgot it. It was more like a nightmare really.

I was with Adam (My former partner) and we were in jail and we couldn't figure out why. Then we realize that it's 'cause we're gay. So we're in the cell and we're getting heckled and shit from other prisoners and it was horrible. I just can't explain it well enough for you to get an idea of how it was. The "camera" in the dream was real blury so it was hard to see anything which when that happens in my dreams always freaks me out. Anyway, towards the end of the dream this guard comes up and takes Adam out of the cell. I follow him (I guess...or was it the "camera?") and they take him to the electric chair and I actually saw them electricut him. I didn't wake up until after it happened. That was the most horrible part. I can still see Adam's face in my head as it happened. Then I woke up and I was drenched in sweat and shaking.

Of course it doesn't help that Adam is dead and was killed by homophobic dickheads. And of course we were dating when he died...Creepy how I randomly thought of him though. I haven't thought of him in ages.

I think I'm going to try and go back to bed...if I can get this image out of my head.

--Ka
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Off to the Doctor...Tomorrow [Jun. 1st, 2005|11:18 pm]
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Ty--

This will probubly be short 'cause I'm not feeling well (still). I'm going to the doctor tomorrow...Ron's coming with. He's a nice guy Dr. Hammond is. He allows Ron to sit in during our visits. Of course I had to sign one of those papers...but still, he could have still said "no".

So, I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't have a fever or anything, I'm just so letargic and tired and just blah all the time. I just don't feel like donig anything. It's just crap is what it is. So I've been watching a lot of movies and snuggling up on the couch with Ron a lot :O) That's the good part of it. Lots of Ron time. I love my Ron time. Before I got sick (or whatever I am at the moment) I didn't get a lot of Ron time 'cause he was always working. But he's taken some days off to be with me 'cause I'm not feeling well. So it's nice in a "I don't feel good" sorta way.

Well, I should be getting to bed. I'm a bit tired and my appointment's early...like 8 or some shit like that!

--Ty
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A Mixture [Jun. 1st, 2005|08:01 pm]
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Daniel--

Had my first day of class today. Boy, teaching gym is harder than one would think. Espesolly when I don't really know anything about sports. I was never into sports as a kid...that was always my brother's thing. He helped me out a lot with the lesson plan and gave me a lot of pointers on different sports and stuff. And I did research on my own...but I still don't know how prepaired I am. I'll find out next week. This week what we're doing is the school's mandiatory "fitness test". I have to test each kid on different things like running and climbing and situps and crap like that. To me it's a big waste of time (and I'm sure the kids agree) but I have to give it at the beginning and end of the semiester. Fun. Today we just had a free day really. I got the balls out and jumpropes and frissbees and whatnot and let them have at it. As long as they were doing something it was cool with me.

The kids themselves are alright. It's a mixer of kids really. Half are there due to a punishment they receaved during the regular year. The other half are taking the summer P.E. session so they don't have to take it during the regular school year so they can take band or choir or something. So I've got real artsy kids and the tough, angry kids. What a combination! I'm sure it'll be fun.

--Daniel
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Decision Made [May. 31st, 2005|02:26 pm]
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Daniel--

Well, tomorrow's my first day teaching middle school gym, and I still don't know if I'm going to come right out and tell them I'm gay or not. I don't want them to find out later and then have the kids think I'm ashamed or something. 'Cause if you know me at all then you know I'm not. I just don't know. I tried talking to Ka about it, and he thinks I shouldn't tell them. He doesn't want me to risk my job...which I understand. We both know we need the money, and if I want to teach English in the fall I need this job now. So I guess that's what I'll do. Hell, it probubly won't even come up during the class. I mean, how would anyone find out anyway right? Famouse last words I'm sure. So I guess that's my decision. Hope it's the right one.

--Daniel
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Is Age Just A Number? [May. 30th, 2005|10:58 pm]
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Ty--

So I did wind up going to work tonight. Turns out Ka worked this afternoon, like at 11 or something. I forgot. It wasn't that bad though. We were real slow and I got to leave early. So it was cool.

I did wait on this very interesting couple that's made me do a lot of thinking. When they first walked up in my line I thought they were father and daughter. He was like 75 or something and she was in her 40s. Then she meantioned that they had just gotten married and I did a double take and in my head I thought, "damn that's messed up!" Then I thought, "Hey, me and Ron are about that far apart in age...I shouldn't be thinking that way." I guess I just don't see me and Ron being a strange couple 'cause I don't think of Ron as being that old. Maybe when he's 75 I will, but right now I don't. But I felt bad for judging them the way I did. They could truely be in love...I mean, they acted like they were. I don't want people to judge Ron and me.

But is it right? I mean, for a guy my age to be with a guy the age of my father? I always say age is just a number, but is it really? I want it to be...I don't know. What I do know is that I love Ron and he loves me and it doesn't feel wrong or anything. It just is. And Ron just happens to be 51. Or maybe I just happen to be 26. Either way, we're in love and I guess that is all that matters. Right? ::sigh::

--Ty
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Fun With Closets [May. 30th, 2005|01:59 pm]
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Ron--

So I decided to take the day off since I put in so much work yesterday. I own Artie's...so I've got the right! Besides, Ty's not feeling so good, so I figured I should stay home in case I need to take him to the hospital or something. He said he'd go tomorrow if he still didn't feel well, but not today 'cause it'll be overly crowed since it's Memorial day and they'll be a bunch of people there with firework wounds. He's got a point, I guess. He doesn't have a fevor or anything...he just doesn't feel well. Could be anything I guess.

Well, I finnished cleaning out and reorginzing the storage closet. That was fun...hardly. I think I woke Daniel up in the process...but I don't really care since he kept me up the other night. The closet looks real nice now...you can actually walk in it!

Ka told me that his son and his wife and their kid are all coming to visit in a few weeks. Which is cool and all, but I know he (Ka) will expect me to cook. Which is fine too, I guess...I love to cook. But I just don't know what to cook. Oh the delema! Ha, if that's the biggest thing I have to worry about I'd be a happy camper. One night we'll have to take them to Artie's I'm guessing. I'll finally get a good opinion on the kids menu!

--Ron
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Mr. Sicky [May. 30th, 2005|12:37 pm]
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Ty--

Yeah, just got out of bed. Can you believe it? 12:30! I have a good reason though. I still don't feel very good. Ron wants to take me to the hospital "just to be safe." But I work tonight and I don't want to have to call in on Memorial day. I mean, I saw how pissy that it made Ron yesterday when people called in "sick" yesterday...although I really am sick.......I don't know. I mean the people at work know I have AIDS and they said they'd be cool with it if I needed a day off or something. But why'd it have to be Memorial day? Maybe Ka can cover for me (we work together at the local grocery store...fun stuff). I'll have to ask him.

I was supossed to help Ron do the closet today...but I just couldn't get up. He kissed me on the forehead and said, "it's okay sweety. Get some rest." and that's what I did. He's used to dealing with a sicky. Tony was sick quite a bit...at least that's what I'm told. So I guess Ron's used to it. Not that that's a good thing. It's a terrible thing to be used to.

I just feel guilty sometimes that I got sick and am putting Ron through all this all over again. It's not what he signed up for when he started with me. I guess he could leave whenever he wanted, and he hasn't, so I guess that's saying something....

Well, I'm going to go get some more sleep before I have to go to work.

--Ty
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Woken Up [May. 30th, 2005|09:57 am]
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Daniel--

Well, Ron had this brillient idea to clean out the storage closset this morning. And of course, the storage closset is down in the basement near my bedroom. So of course it woke me up. Not that 9:30 is all that early, but since I'm starting teaching in a few days I'm trying to sleep in as much as possible now. Ka's still fast asleep. He can sleep through anything. Damn, he could sleep through a Metllica concert if he wanted to.

He told me about Chad and Ashley coming to visit. I'm real excited too...'cept that I'll be working during the days when they're here. And Ashley can get on my nervis sometimes. She doesn't mean too...she's just ignorant about what it means to be gay. She just assumes so much stuff. Like when I first met her she asked me weither I was a hairdresser or an interior designer. Blah! It's stuff like that that just gets on my nerves after a while. She can't help it I guess, and she's learning. She doesn't make such stupid comments any more...but you know what they say about first impressions.

Well, I think I'm going to go get some breakfast.

--Daniel
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Ickky [May. 29th, 2005|11:59 pm]
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Ty--

Boy I'm not feeling good right now...maybe it was something I ate. Part of me hopes it's not 'cause the last thing I ate was at Arties...and part of me hopes it is 'cause if it's not then I could be getting sick, and that's never good with my "compromised immune system" and all. ::sigh:: I hate getting sick. I think I'm going to go crawl into bed and hope I can get to sleep before Ka and Daniel start up again.

--Ty
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A Visiter [May. 29th, 2005|11:50 pm]
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Ka--

I know I just posted...but I just had to update with this news. I just got a call from Chad (my son) and he and Ashley (his wife) and Danielle are coming to vist! Gosh I'm so exicited. Chad's out of school for the summer (he's in law school right now--my son, law school wow) so he figured it'd be a good time to come up. It should be a lot of fun. There coming up in a week or so. We want Danielle to be real comfertable with her gay grandparents. And when I say "we" I mean me and Chad as well as Daniel. Ashley--well, not so much. I mean she's okay with her husband having two fathers in a sense (even though I wasn't in Chad's life at the time I started with Daniel) but she's still uncomfortable with the whole idea of Danielle being "exposed" to it. Like, it was okay until there was a child involved. What the hell? Anyway, we're trying to lossen her up. We're not going to turn an infant gay after all! But obviouslly she's pretty cool with it 'cause they're coming. Of course I have to check this all out with Ron and Ty...it is there house...but they should be cool with it. They've never met Danielle or Ashley I don't think. I'm just real excited to see my son and his daughter.

--Ka
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Sick of Their Faces [May. 29th, 2005|10:42 pm]
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Ka--

So, Daniel's upstairs watching a movie with Ron and Ty. I didn't really feel like hanging out with them tonight. I went to dinner with Ty and Daniel earlier and now I just feel like being by myself. Ty said I was being a party pooper...but sometimes I just need some "me" time...do I sould like a girl? Daniel called me a girl (lovingly of course).

It's just that when you're bestfriends with the same people you live with you get kinda bored of them...does that make sense? Like I'm sick of Ty and Ron's faces. I see them every morning, every night...all the time. Maybe if they wore masks....but really. Is this a bad thing? I thought moving in would be a good thing. I mean it is on my wallet, but maybe once Daniel gets some money coming in we can move into our own place. That'll be a little while at least though. As we all know teachers don't make squat.

--Ka
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To Tell or Not To Tell [May. 29th, 2005|08:25 pm]
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Daniel--

So, yeah. I was thinking about Joe last night. Yeah, after I had sex with Ka. Hum...that shouldn't be. I wasn't exactally thinking about him, rather I was thinking about our relationship...or former relationship. I was thinking, "would I have gotten back with Ka if Joe hadn't moved?" and the answer was, "I don't know." Which is kinda sad really. But I love Ka. I always have. I loved him even when I left him. And we never really worked anything out about the kid issue. I just agreed to not have any, even though I still want them. Maybe once I start teaching again it'll be different.

Speaking of teaching...I start my summer stint as a P.E. teacher in a few days. Yeah, that's right for June and July I'm teaching summer school so I'm garunteed a position in the fall. The draw back was I couldn't choose what I want to teach, or even what grade. So I'm teaching middle school summer P.E. The lowest on the toedum pole. I'm not sure if I should come right out with the fact that I'm gay with the parents and students or not. I mean, if I don't then when or if they find out they could be pissed that I'm teaching gym without them knowing I'm gay. If I do tell them I might just get kicked out. I mean, the school board and stuff know and they're okay with it...okay's a bit stronge for what they are...but it'll have to do. So it's not like I'm hiding it from the school or anything. If I don't tell them it might never come up. I don't know...I've got a few more days to think about it though!

--Daniel
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Stressing Over Parsley! [May. 29th, 2005|07:39 pm]
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Ty--

Me, Ka and Daniel went to surprise Ron at work today. He actually wasn't that happy to see us. You see, he was very busy 'cause some people "called in sick" (that's how Ron put it...he did the little bunny ears any everything, it was kinda cute) so he had to cover for them in the kitchen. He likes running a resturant, and he likes cooking, but he doesn't like cooking at the resturant. Too much stress. And lord knows he doesn't need any more stress. Espesolly after a night like last night. Man, even after Ka and Daniel finished neather of us could get back to sleep.
Ron's really getting to the point where he doesn't want to be so hands on at Arties. And I don't blame him. He's at the age where you start thinking about retiring, so it's natural. He got it up and running and I'm so proud of him for that. But now it's time to hand it off to someone else. Still own it and be the head honcho of the whole thing, but not have to deal with the day to day shit like ordering more parsley. He was complaining last night 'cause the shipment of parsley hadn't come in yet and they were going to run out...I said they could do without parsley, no one eats it anyway. It's just there for decoration. But Ron was like, "people expect it to be there." So, whatever. He was all stressing over parsley. He really needs to hand this stuff over to someone else.

--Ty
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Didn't Sleep a Wink [May. 29th, 2005|10:19 am]
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Ron--

Didn't sleep a wink last night. Between Ka and Daniel downstairs and my arthitis it just wasn't happening. Damn I sound old. Hell, I am old. I'm 51 for crying out loud. And now Ty's telling me I'm getting a little thin up top if you know what I mean. I can't lose my hair! I love my hair :-( I guess most people do...but still.
Well, it's memorial day weekend so Artie's is going to be packed (I hope!) So I should get going and see how the crew is doing.

--Ron
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I Can Hear Them [May. 29th, 2005|12:14 am]
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Ty--

Yes, I was asleep. Note I said was. They woke me up. They? Ka and Daniel. They're down in the basement again making sweet sweet love. Oh I'm sorry. Was that sarcassum? Well from what Ka's told me it is. He doesn't want to have sex with Daniel, it just "sorta happens" (his words). How does it just "sorta happen?" **sigh** It's not my problem, so I guess I shouldn't worry about it. But Ka and Daniel are my friends.
Well, I'm going to go and try and go back to sleep.
--Ty
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Here I am Again [May. 28th, 2005|11:59 pm]
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Ka--

So, here I am again starting a "blog" or should I call it by its real name? A Live Journal. Oooh. Special. I can never keep these up...but I'm going to try this time.

Summer is so boreing. Theres nothing to do but work and play around on the computer. Daniel's in bed asleep...I should be too, but I know if I go in there he'll just want to have sex and I'm just not in the mood right now. But he's got this way of talking me into it. So I'm trying to stay out here as long as possible. I know Ron and Ty can hear us upstairs when we do it. It's kinda embarressing. I mean, we can hear them so I know they can hear us. But it still feels like I'm in there house. Even though all my furniture's down here and everything. I guess it'll just take a little time for it to feel like "home".

But isn't home supposed to be where all your family is? And Daniel's back, so shouldn't this feel like home? I guess that's my problem. Daniel just doesn't feel the same since he left and came back. Maybe I don't trust him anymore. I mean, how can I really? After he left and then just magically came back for no real reason that I can figure out. He says he missed me. Hum. It took him six months to realize he missed me? And we never really fixed the issue anyway. He wants kids. I know he does. But I don't. Typical relationship problem. Why didn't we talk about this all those years ago?

Okay, I'm rambling...

--Ka
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