|My Two Dads
||[Jun. 14th, 2005|06:36 pm]
Honorary Gay Man
|||||Pet Shop Boys--Do I Have To?||]|
Got home from dinner with my dad a little while ago. Me and Ashley and Danielle and dad went out for father's day just the four of us. It was nice. I wish Daniel had come, but I understand why he didn't.
After dinner dad and I had a long talk about Daniel. See, he's worried about me 'cause I've gotten real close to Daniel, and even named my daughter after him. And now they're thinking about spliting up...this time for good. I told him it was his decision and not to worry about me. I'll be okay either way. I'd still like to have Daniel in my life...he's been like a second father to me, and growing up without even one dad it's kinda nice to have two now. I mean, when I was reunited with dad a few years ago he was with Daniel, and they've just been like a pair together. When you see one you see the other.
I don't know what the whole point in all of this is. I want my dad to be happy. I guess that's what it boils down to. I mean, I'd love to have a sibbling being an only child it'd be nice...but if he doesn't want another kid I can completly understand that. I did tell dad that he was a good father. He doesn't belive me. I think that's the root of the problem: he feels guilty about not being around when I was a kid. But it wasn't his fault. It was mom's. She never told dad where we were or anything. Dad had to hunt her down to find anything out...she even admited this all to me when Ashely was pregnent. He was a good father because he cared and thought about me even when I wasn't there. But its his life obviously and if he doesn't want a kid then that's his decision.
I bought a father's day card for Daniel too. I try and do little things like that to show that I support them, 'cause I know they're always worring about how I feel about their relationship. I think I'm going to pull Daniel aside in a minute and talk to him too and give him the card. I want him to know that even if he and dad break up I want him to be a part of Danielle's life. We're teaching her to call him Grandpa.