||[Sep. 26th, 2005|11:11 pm]
Honorary Gay Man
|||||John Popper--Growing In Dirt||]|
Things are all very strange.
I went to the "writing confrence" and ha ha...joke was on me. I was the only one there besides Jordan...
He told me he made the whole thing up so he could see me, then realzied how silly that was but didn't care 'cause he knew I wouldn't go see him any other way. Which, I guess would be true. If he had asked me out on a date (which is what it turned out to be) I would have flat out refussed. Not that I don't like him...I think I do...I'm not sure...it's just that he's my teacher for crying out loud.
But in terms of the date, at first it was real uncomfertable. I didn't know what to do 'casue I hadn't perpaired myself at all for it. Jordan ordered some Chines food and while we waited for it to get there we made some small talk...but it was all very, um...tense.
Then he just came right out and said, "Ka...I like you." Then got all shy and he blushed. In all honesty it was cute.
I said to him that I was his student...I couldn't be anything more than that. It just wouldn't be a good idea. But Jordan kept pushing it. He said he would just like to see me again, a few times...see if there's anything there and then we could figure out what to do.
I agreed. I don't know why. Was I caught up in the moment? Do I really like him? I don't know. But I'm going out with him again on Wednesday...after class. So yeah, I have to go through class pretending that I'm just a student...when I know he's probably undressing me in his head while he teaches.
Why do I always get myself into these situations??